I miss you

i don't know why am i so stupid..e way you are treating me is so obvious that i'm only a hi-bye friend to you. Think worst then how you treated her previously..
Touch your heart and tell me the truth..you still love her don't you?
U said before let remain as friend & see how things goes..i see nothing..i think now you only treat me as a hi-bye friend..or worst..maybe how you wish you wouldn't bump into me am i right? Seeing me make you feel guilty of hurting me? Or seeing me make you feel irritated cause a pest is bugging over you? Clinging to you tightly till you can't breathe?
I'm stupid i'm a bugger..yes i know..i should have wake up from my dream of you coming back to me..and i know you'll never come back to me..because you had never fall in love for me.. Yes maybe 10years ago you did love me or should i say puppy love? but not now..the feeling you had for me is just a yi lai because she's no longer there & i happen to appear..because i happen to be your ex and i did said before i'm willing to accept any guy tt i'm comfortable with as a fling..to you i'm just a fling..but as days pass by you put your miss toward her on me..you thought you loved me but actually you didn't..by the time you realised is already too late..cause you'd already made me fallen in love with you..but yet you "fallen" out of love for me..should i said you choose to withdraw from this love story that you thought it was a love story but in actual fact it was just a fling story..

Can i say that you are selfish? If from the start you just treat me as a fling & vice versa i wouldn't get hurt am i right? from the start if you can make yourself clear then i no need to suffer am i right? from the start if you could have listen to me ask your heart whatever you did is it what you want? Your answer for me was yes i want you i don't want to lose you..you are afraid that i'll go back to him..but i see a different picture now..
Now i'm the only one sitting at a corner crying..thinking of you..thinking of the happy times and unfulfil promise that we make..going to singapore flyer again..doing this & that..it had all be long forgotten by you..
But it was written deep down in my heart but my heart is bleeding continuously now..will it wash away those promises you made? I hope it can..
I still rmb my very 1st sentence to you. Your heart is meant to be broken so that some1 new can fix it..guessed i should said that sentence to myself instead..
Days and times with you i cherish..words said by you i remembered..and my love for you is still here but it no longer have a owner..because the owner of my love had long forgotten his promised made to me..he had even forgot that he said before he love me..
Maybe it's was only a dreamt to you but it's is a memories to me..a dream is when you wake up you forgotten about everything..a memories is no matter where you are you'll still think of the times that had been spent together..and smile to yourself and said yes i love him before but he chose to leave but there's still memories with me..